There are no more barriers to cross
all I have in common with the uncontrollable and insane
the vicious and the evil
all the mayhem I have caused
and my utter indifference to the world
I have now surpassed

My pain is constant and sharp
and I do not hope for a better world for anyone
in fact, I want my pain to be inflicted on others
I want no one to escape

But even after admitting this
there is no katharsis
my punishment continues to allude me
and I gain no deeper knowledge of myself
no new knowledge can be extracted from my telling
this confession has meant

nothing